Pipe me up, John
' I've heard so many people tell me about "Stop This Train" and what it means to them, especially this time of year. All I can say is "me too"...
To everyone in the last year who's approached me to tell me that my music has pulled them through a tough time, may 2007 be a year in which music only scores the happiness in your life. What makes life so compelling is that nobody can avoid that darkness - I know I won't - but in the moments when things fall into place, they are to be enjoyed as much for what they are as for what they won't be someday... And that's what I've been learning lately. My new mantra: "While you were, say you did." '
- John Mayer/Blog, Dec 31 2006 entry
I love the way you speak the truth straight from the heart, Mayer. Kudos.
So I am stuck in school on this rainy/gloomy Wednesday afternoon, with nothing to do. Well, okay, if I choose to, I could really be reading my Corporate Reputation textbook Case or the course pack, but well I'm sleepy and a little dissatisfied at having dragged my ass out of bed at 10am only to find out Kai was pushing our lunch appointment back by an hour and a half. Worst bit is, he only told me when I got out of the house and was already at the bus-stop. Anyway I've set aside Thursday and Friday for doing work. (Is that too little time? Should I do it now? Has everyone read the material for Weeks 1 to 5 already? GAAH)
Bejeez.
There was a little green spider who tried to get into my top while I rode the bus 77 from Sixth Avenue down to school. It totally freaked me out, but it also died in the process. Poor thing. I didn't kill it though - it was the girl who sat next to me on the bus - the spider had the poor sense to land on her dress after hopping off my top and my bag. She calmly retrieved tissue paper from her bag, and ... well. That was The End of Spider.
So calm, she was. Made me look bad for squeaming, dammit.
Little green spiders are gross. They make my skin crawl. I hate small spiders. I am mortally terrified of big ones.
John Mayer keeps saying "two wrongs make it all alright, tonight" through my headphones.
I have a quiz and project due on the same day in Week 5. The realities of school are so cutting, it feels like my lifeblood is drained out of me. No more doing-whatever-I-want time, or sleep-in-and-do-nothing-today time. It's all going to be about proper time management, meeting deadlines and meeting them well, and the other blahs that is the Rat Race of school. My Malaysian friend was telling me, "You Singaporeans work too hard". I guess he is right. But who am I to complain right, everyone's been at it for one term already, and here I am just back from a long holiday. But you know what gets to me is the fear of having realized I am no longer as good as I was at what I am doing, and having to pay the ultimate price for having so much fun.
Bah.
Where did this grey veil of sian-ness come from, and how did it settle itself over my vision? Hmmm. Could be the badly distressing dreams I've been having every night, for the past week since I am home; maybe it's the fact I didn't bring my own laptop to school so have to bum off the library's; maybe it's my lack of a cashcard leading to me not being able to print my class notes for later; maybe it's the utter scariness of being in school with so many people around but not one familiar face (where has everyone gone to?). Aaahh.
I feel like being around someone now.
To everyone in the last year who's approached me to tell me that my music has pulled them through a tough time, may 2007 be a year in which music only scores the happiness in your life. What makes life so compelling is that nobody can avoid that darkness - I know I won't - but in the moments when things fall into place, they are to be enjoyed as much for what they are as for what they won't be someday... And that's what I've been learning lately. My new mantra: "While you were, say you did." '
- John Mayer/Blog, Dec 31 2006 entry
I love the way you speak the truth straight from the heart, Mayer. Kudos.
So I am stuck in school on this rainy/gloomy Wednesday afternoon, with nothing to do. Well, okay, if I choose to, I could really be reading my Corporate Reputation textbook Case or the course pack, but well I'm sleepy and a little dissatisfied at having dragged my ass out of bed at 10am only to find out Kai was pushing our lunch appointment back by an hour and a half. Worst bit is, he only told me when I got out of the house and was already at the bus-stop. Anyway I've set aside Thursday and Friday for doing work. (Is that too little time? Should I do it now? Has everyone read the material for Weeks 1 to 5 already? GAAH)
Bejeez.
There was a little green spider who tried to get into my top while I rode the bus 77 from Sixth Avenue down to school. It totally freaked me out, but it also died in the process. Poor thing. I didn't kill it though - it was the girl who sat next to me on the bus - the spider had the poor sense to land on her dress after hopping off my top and my bag. She calmly retrieved tissue paper from her bag, and ... well. That was The End of Spider.
So calm, she was. Made me look bad for squeaming, dammit.
Little green spiders are gross. They make my skin crawl. I hate small spiders. I am mortally terrified of big ones.
John Mayer keeps saying "two wrongs make it all alright, tonight" through my headphones.
I have a quiz and project due on the same day in Week 5. The realities of school are so cutting, it feels like my lifeblood is drained out of me. No more doing-whatever-I-want time, or sleep-in-and-do-nothing-today time. It's all going to be about proper time management, meeting deadlines and meeting them well, and the other blahs that is the Rat Race of school. My Malaysian friend was telling me, "You Singaporeans work too hard". I guess he is right. But who am I to complain right, everyone's been at it for one term already, and here I am just back from a long holiday. But you know what gets to me is the fear of having realized I am no longer as good as I was at what I am doing, and having to pay the ultimate price for having so much fun.
Bah.
Where did this grey veil of sian-ness come from, and how did it settle itself over my vision? Hmmm. Could be the badly distressing dreams I've been having every night, for the past week since I am home; maybe it's the fact I didn't bring my own laptop to school so have to bum off the library's; maybe it's my lack of a cashcard leading to me not being able to print my class notes for later; maybe it's the utter scariness of being in school with so many people around but not one familiar face (where has everyone gone to?). Aaahh.
I feel like being around someone now.
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