Your Soft Skin Is Weeping.

I've been feeling like being alone.

It seems I'm happiest being alone these few days, I don't know why. Sort of like a breather, a relief. "Phew."

Maybe it's 'cos I'm (still!) sick, and I just don't really feel like ... pleasing. This cold is getting me down man, it feels icky to always have snot, and also it leaves me feeling lethargic. Combine that with cramps (of the period variety) and I'm dead stoned at times.

Maybe it's also 'cos I need to sort some stuff out within myself. And I'm of the mindset these days that no one can really help you unless you help yourself first.

Today at Topshop I saw so many things I love, but that were just too expensive. It sucks! Ouch. All these things I want to own, but can't. Can't is the hard part.

Oh, and I need to regain my self-esteem man. Here I feel so ... plain. I'm just too practical a traveler - I need to first and foremost be warm, so I'm not wearing no miniskirts and tights and ballet pumps. I'm just always in my jeans and sweaters and Converses. I am becoming one of those dressers I never wanted to become :( I can't frickin' wait to go home and dress up again, and get my hair cut in a new style. :) The light at the end of the tunnel! Aah.

I'm lovin' this song. It's so dramatic - I'm digging all the dramatic shit now. Like Death Cab's "I Will Follow You Into The Dark".

"Miles away from where you are
I lay down on the cold ground, I
I pray that something picks me up
And sets me down in your warm arms"
- "Set the Fire to the Third Bar", Snow Patrol